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As I deconstructed my faith, I found myself deconstructing my political beliefs too. The two were more intertwined than I ever realized.

As a missionary, I taught investigators to read 3 Nephi 11 and then pray about it using Moroni 10:3-5. Looking back through the lens of an atheist, I can see how these passages prime the reader toward a predetermined conclusion.

Religious advice often contains useful wisdom. But you don't need God to access it. You just need to translate it into something real.

When government officials can act without accountability, we've abandoned the foundational principles this country was built on.

Mormon scripture systematically strips you of ownership over your goodness while blaming you for your wickedness. This isn't theology. It's designed shame.

I have no inclination to go back to church. Even if I did it wouldn't be the same.

A quote from Jeffrey R. Holland reveals how the Mormon church frames those who leave as foolish, dishonest, and deceived. When leaders speak this way, is it any wonder that those who left feel disconnected from those who stayed?

A family member asked me what I believe now that I've left the church. I didn't have a quick answer. But I'm working on figuring it out.

The entire holiday was supposed to celebrate the birth of Christ. So what does Christmas mean when you don't believe in Christ anymore?

A Facebook commentor sent me to Mosiah 2-4 to answer my concerns about Mormon theology. Instead, these chapters confirmed everything I said about the shame cycle.

Mormon theology teaches that God sent us to earth knowing we would be 'soiled by sin' then offers to cleanse us from contamination He orchestrated. This isn't love. It's designed trauma.

My most-played song of 2025 was a K-Pop track by an all-female group. At 43, making crucial adjustments to the way I approach life, that's not a coincidence. It's a manifesto set to music.

I'm not sure I believe trees have literal personhood. But I'm reconsidering what it means to be in relationship with the earth that formed me—and whether the distinction even matters.

After decades of being told who I should be, I'm learning to define myself on my own terms—as a product of the cosmos, a feeling being who thinks, and someone worthy of compassion rather than condemnation.

An article blames consumers for keeping devices too long and dragging down productivity. But when people can't afford new phones, the problem isn't 'hoarding.' It's an economy that's left them behind.

The Mormon church just lowered the mission age for women from 19 to 18, calling it revelation. But when you look at the timing, the pattern, and the outcomes, it looks less like divine guidance and more like institutional optimization.

Religious leaders claim to know your 'true' identity better than you do, defining you as God's child with eternal spiritual roots. But who you really are is something you get to determine for yourself, based on your lived experience, not unprovable claims about pre-existence.

The Mormon church promises deliverance from problems, but the real deliverance came when I stepped away from the framework that created most of those problems in the first place.

Reflecting on the No Kings protests reveals not just concerns about Trump's authoritarian actions, but deeper questions about systemic erosion, the limits of reform, and the absence of good options when working within a broken system fails but violent change promises catastrophe.

Contemplating the incomprehensible scale of the cosmos, both spatial and temporal, reveals humanity as simultaneously insignificant and extraordinary: a brief arrangement of matter that became the universe's way of knowing itself.

Religious institutions maintain prophetic credibility through unfalsifiable frameworks that absorb all outcomes, a pattern revealed clearly in Russell M. Nelson's presidency, and my decade-long journey from silence to speaking.

Religious institutions maintain prophetic credibility by counting hits, discounting misses, and retroactively drawing targets around wherever their predictions happened to land.

The real threat to American democracy isn't coming from the left or the right—it's coming from the normalization of political violence itself and the leaders who exploit tragedy to deepen divisions rather than heal them.

From clear answers to honest uncertainty - why I'm writing again.